True confession here: I have no idea how to become a Patriot or a Saint. If I succeed in this endeavor, it will be through Divine Providence, not my own power. That said, I have been gifted with opportunities to struggle and suffer and therefore learn. My challenges have been more difficult than others’ and less difficult than many’s. God allows each of us the right amount of pain to sanctify us and those around us for eternity – IF we allow it to. By committing to Live, Not Ordinary, I am committing to allow my pain to sanctify me and hopefully my Beloved children and family, friends, those who read this, and so many others.
Over years of hardship, I’ve learned a lot from what others were graciously willing to share. I’ve invested time, finances, and energy into learning how to turn tragedy into triumph and emerge from victim to victor, but I have more to go to fully portray these ideals.
The next step is to stop running and the unfocused pursuit of what God asks of me. Once tragedy is over, it is time to move on to clarify and solidify those dreams. I’m working at putting what Divine Providence has shown me to work for our joint pursuit of my patriotism and sainthood. It’s the little things. I don’t have the full picture yet, but here’s what I do know.
We often think to change we need to do something earth shattering that changes life as we know it overnight, but no one goes out and runs a marathon. What she does is run one small and solitary step over 26.1 miles. It’s all those little steps done consistently uphill and down that make up the race.
Life is much the same. God puts us in the race. It is up to us to take repeated small steps even when the finish line is unclear, unseen, or completely unknown! It is the commitment to give God your fiat showing that Yes!!! You will act in accordance with His plans and His Commands day in and day out. You will step forward in faith when there is a crowd around judging you and when you are alone and no one is there to hold you accountable.
It is not in big things that change is made but in many small ones done over time. If you are stuck and unsure of how to move forward in God’s plan don’t be dismayed. Simply keep prayerfully doing the next right thing. Do not be sidetracked. Do not get distracted. Do not fall for discouragement. Do not accept excuses or justifications.
Instead, revel in the mystery. Find surprise in the unknown. Be joyful in discovery. Be childlike in your trust.
Be consistent in your small steps.
Prayer: Dear Beloved Father, sometimes I fall to pride and ego and impatience. I want to take giant steps instead of small ones. I want what I want when I want it and I want it all now. My Beloved Father, help me appreciate details in the small steps I’d have missed if everything snapped into place instantaneously. I ask for the humility to know I am not you, my King, and the Grace to know I don’t need instant perfection to be my King’s Beloved as well. Amen.
Gratitude Journal – May 25, 2023
Thank You Lord for…
- B’s birthday.
- Getting this out of my head and heart and written even though I was tired.
- The understanding that writing is part of Live Not Ordinary for me.
- C’s last game.
- M and Z standing with us.
- K’s chat 5th period.
- The good grades on the last algebra test of the year.
- Meema taking me to drop my car off.
- Getting my workout done in school.
- Getting Regents review material ideas!
- FOUR DAYS OFF AND THE MEN AND WOMEN WHO THIS WEEKEND IS MADE TO HONOR AND REMEMBER.